In the Beginning

In the beginning (Jan '16)

How do I start this. Well like every story it has a starting point, somewhere.

Over the years a fascination with and exploration of many things kink. Perhaps not playing as much as I would have liked, but nonetheless more than most. Initially my foray into kink had begun with all things leather and heavy bondage (I blame Pulp Fictions gimp). It was the being rendered useless that I found a love for, the ability to just be, and of course be used, completely at someone else's mercy. My only downside was that it was never able to last long enough, all the while achieving that invaluable 'subspace' we all search for.

Over time an intrigue with chastity, its denial and the side of frustration from orgasm denial seemed to become more and more of interest. It was experimented with in the early days using a few initial devices but none really fit that well and some broke, eventually moving onto leather chastity shorts, which were sadly not ideal for everyday.

Why and how did this interest in chastity come about ?  I don't really know if there were pinpoint moments or a particular pearl of wisdom that suggested it. At the time when it emerged I was in a long term relationship, and sex was available ironically. In truth, whilst I've always enjoyed penetrative sex in different forms and have a rather high sex drive, my personal pleasure has always been the provision of Oral worship. I have wondered if what I have been searching for is somebody to recognise my desire for sex and orgasms, have the individual and personal strength to take them away physically, emotionally and then play, tease and torment me with them. Alas, no one has yet to come forth.

Over the last few years I've chosen to remain 'single' for a number of reasons. In part because other factors were such more prevalent over time but also because I felt that a traditional relationship was not for me anymore, and that perhaps it never was. This of course led to some self analysis, some thought about what my desires are truthfully, not the internet porn fantasy of what we dream to be, or have. What came out of this was a realisation and overriding desire for chastity and oral servitude. Without realising I had also discovered a desire and huge fetish in seeing 'Queen of Spades' or 'HotWives' in action. There was something not only about the taboo of white women with Black men but the rendering of what we know as a modern day 'cuckold' Husband/partner becoming effectively surplus to requirements sexually, with exception to the beauty that is 'oral cleanup'.

So, I'd reached a point where I'd identified a love of Oral Worship, Chastity and the revelation and beauty of the 'QOS' phenomena. What could be better I thought....now how do I go about meeting someone who would desire a partner who is willing to support their sexually liberated freedom with Black guys and would be desired to be kept locked in a cock cage. Mad isn't it.

What woman in Her right mind would want to own a partner, keep them in permanent chastity and fulfil own their sexual desires as and when they pleased with their 'cuckolds' absolute love, support and encouragement to truly pursue and go about defining the role of a 'Queen of Spades' who is passionately devoted solely to Black cock.

So in short I've narrowed it down to this as things to look for;

- Searching for a 'Queen of Spades' that is Black cock only.
- 'QoS' requires Chastity for Her partner
- Sex (pussy/ass and touching of breasts) are denied to the 'cuckold'
- Kissing between 'QoS' and 'cuckold' is never denied
- Oral Worship is a privilege

It should go without saying that fundamentally everything begins with a foundation from which to begin and begin to build towards the desired end result. Hopefully by identifying and understanding my own needs it may make me more appealing to someone who may be searching from the opposite side of the coin, only time will tell.

At the time of writing this initial entry, I have been fortunate enough to meet a Beautiful Mistress and 'QoS' who has agreed wholeheartedly to help guide my initial journey into the beautiful world of cuckoldry. For this I will be forever grateful, having shown me a kindness and openness in understanding my desires and permitting a platform to better understand my future role.

And now the journey has begun.